KyuMin: Rumor (#2)

I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHY I WROTE THIS. But because it's out of my brain, I figure I'll let people see it. Sorry if it makes no sense.

Some KyuMin, YeWook, and YeMin (Or is it SungSung? lol), and I suppose mentionings of KiHae because I couldn't help myself.

Unbeta-ed, as always (I never beta, though I should. It's still readable, though). Sowwy in advance~

Title: Rumor (#2)
Word Count: 1759
Rating: PG? G?
Started/Finished: 12.08.09 / 12.08.09
Music Muse: Super Junior T, "Rokkuguh"
Description: Sometimes, things just happen. He learns soon enough.

Rumor

SungMin knew he should only believe so much. Rumors were rumors, after all, and it wasn't like there was any proof behind them yet. Besides, when said rumors came from fan-run forums and not from legitimate news sources, their validity was likely nonexistent.

But the media would have stopped caring to include that rumor in their broadcasts, anyway. Fan-service was normal to them by now, and it was surely not something worth reporting after every Super Junior concert performance.

And fan-service is just fan-service, SungMin tried reminding himself. None of it means anything in the end.

SungMin convinced himself this was just a result of jealousy. Why should he care what KyuHyun was doing outside of Korea, anyway? Should he care because the two had shared some close moments before leaving? Or because that man was the only person who appeared in his dreams late at night? Maybe even because KyuHyun stopped calling him every other night like he used to?

He stills thinks about me, SungMin told himself, I know it.

But he couldn't help but to listen to those rumors, and it was perhaps that there were so many depicting the same tale that caused SungMin to worry more than he should. Some of them were even ridiculous; one said that, after KiBum's recent break-up with DongHae, KyuHyun had taken the opportunity to steal the heartbroken man for himself. It was lies, SungMin knew, but when everything on the Internet said the exact same thing....

He knew the rumors were only a result of "fan-service." He knew the truth was just that KyuHyun had given DongHae a kiss on the cheek during one of their performances. It wasn't even like KyuHyun to do something like that -- DongHae, really?

And it wasn't even a real kiss.
So why was he bothered?



When the rumors persisted, SungMin did his best to keep his head high. He forced himself to tune out anything regarding Super Junior M and their endeavors. He refused to sit in front of a computer to use the Internet. As cliche as it seemed, SungMin knew ignorance truly was bliss.

He also tried his best to keep his composure around the others. But apparently, he had failed terribly.

"We're Super Junior Happy, remember?" LeeTeuk reminded him. "It's a little obvious that you're anything but happy."

SungMin nodded, but inside he was shaking his head. He didn't want Super Junior Happy right now. He wanted Super Junior, just Super Junior, where he had a reason to be with KyuHyun.



One day, as SungMin was solemnly eating breakfast in front of the television, a sudden weight decided to seat itself next to him. He frowned at first, knowing it wasn't the person he wanted to be there, and for that reason he remained unresponsive.

A few minutes of silence lingered in the air, save the television in the background. And then, just when SungMin felt like he couldn't take the silence with the unnamed person anymore, the unnamed person spoke.

"SungMin, I know how you feel."
YeSung.



They talked a lot that day, as well as the next day. SungMin realized that YeSung really did know how he felt, with RyeoWook overseas as well. And though YeSung never really described his relationship with that man explicitly, SungMin had the strangest feeling it was quite similar to his relationship with KyuHyun.

When he was around YeSung, his worries over rumors were nonexistent. He was able to talk to YeSung normally, and it had felt good having a clear conscience for once. It had made him realize that those hours worrying over rumors had been pointless, and he knew that if he could keep up the same faith and courage as YeSung did then he would be fine.

But despite these achievements, there was one thing that SungMin was beginning to fear. And that fear was confirmed when one night, in the middle of his dream, KyuHyun's face was no longer what he saw.



SungMin decides to ask YeSung: "Hyung, what does RyeoWook mean to you?"

"You don't know?" the other asked in response.

SungMin shook his head. "I just want to know."

YeSung gave his fair share of questioning looks before replying. "Wookie means a lot to me. To be honest, I don't think he knows how much he means to me. But he's also like a brother to me, someone I care about and should look after."

"I see," was all SungMin said in response. Did he see KyuHyun in that same light? SungMin was sure he did, but he couldn't help but to feel slightly uncertain.

No, it's not supposed to be like this! SungMin yelled inside his head. KyuHyun, not YeSung....



He spent an entire night thinking it over, but it gave him no consolation when by the end of the night he was still empty-handed.



In one of the new songs for Super Junior Happy's next album was an entrance that had SungMin and YeSung singing in perfect harmony. Sometimes, when singing the song, SungMin would forget that the song was actually about a guy chasing a girl he'd met in his dreams. And even though he preferred several other songs on their album over this one, he couldn't deny that he felt his happiest during that duet.

He was absolutely sure it was because the duet sounded good and had nothing to do with the fact that it was with YeSung. But his conscience insisted he was in denial.



One night, SungMin received an unexpected phone call from KyuHyun. Apparently KyuHyun had been incredibly busy, though SungMin was hardly surprised.

"I'm exhausted, Sungminnie," he'd said in a slight accent SungMin knew had been picked up from speaking Mandarin for a little too long. "So many shows, so much practicing. And DongHae isn't helping any."

Suddenly the rumors that had been stashed in the back of SungMin's mind began to resurface. "DongHae? What's he doing to you? Don't tell me those rumors are actually true?"

KyuHyun laughed at this. "What rumors, Minnie?"

"That you and him..." began SungMin through pursed lips. He tried to say the rest of it, but nothing came.

"We're not together or anything," said KyuHyun, laughing once more. "I'm not that cruel, you know. What I meant was that DongHae broke up with KiBum -- or KiBum broke up with him, I guess. With KiBum in America and DongHae in China, I guess the distance wasn't working out. But it's really been quite the damper in his mood, as well as all of ours."

"They broke up...?" SungMin wondered aloud. Somehow, he had been hoping the entire rumor was false, but it seemed they still had their truths in them....

Eventually their conversation came to an end, since KyuHyun had to wake up rather early the next day. The last words KyuHyun had said were "I miss you, hyung. Wait for me, okay?" to which SungMin had replied with "I miss you too."

He had wanted to add a "I love you too," afterwards, but he didn't have the courage to do it. Yet even with that desire, he still couldn't figure out why it was now YeSung's face, not KyuHyun's face, that painted the background of his dreams.



Everything KyuHyun had told him that night had been according to the reality SungMin had tried hard to hold onto. In the end, SungMin had to admit, it was all just pointless worrying.



"What would you do if RyeoWook didn't like you back?" SungMin asked YeSung while on one of their breaks.

The latter only shrugged. "Nothing, I guess. I'd feel hurt, maybe, but nothing would change. If I can't care for him as his lover, I'll care for him as his hyung. I don't think the feelings change much, do you? I think the only thing that changes is the intentions behind those feelings."

"I see," was all SungMin said in response.

Did he see KyuHyun in that same light?

SungMin was sure he did.

But he couldn't help but to feel slightly uncertain.



One night it came to him. Realization swept over him and knocked him over. How could he be this much of a hypocrite?

All that time SungMin had spent worrying about what KyuHyun was doing in China, wondering if KyuHyun's interests were invested elsewhere.... What if KyuHyun was thinking the exact same thing? But what was worse was that KyuHyun actually had a reason to question him, because for some reason SungMin could not get YeSung out of his head.

He wanted KyuHyun. He was sure of it. He didn't know what YeSung was. There was no future there, anyway, not with RyeoWook still around.

No. I have to do this. For KyuHyun's sake.



"Ah, SungMin!" YeSung was calling from a distance -- but SungMin did not turn around. "SungMin, why are you ignoring me? Did I do something wrong?"

It was awfully extreme and SungMin knew it. But with YeSung still inexplicably in his head, it was all he could.

"Mianhae, YeSung."



A few weeks later, the members of Super Junior M returned to Korea, though Henry and Zhou Mi had remained in China. The twelve members had celebrated their reunion, though the emotions present were rather mixed in nature. From DongHae, an overwhelming blanket of sadness, which could not even be lifted by HyukJae's attempts at comic relief. From KyuHyun and SungMin, an awkwardness that really couldn't be explained by anyone except themselves. And from HeeChul, a grouchiness that was merely characteristic.

Being in KyuHyun's presence washed away any doubts he'd had, whether in KyuHyun or in himself. And he knew this had nothing to do with the many gifts from China KyuHyun had kindly showered him with. It was what he had always wanted, back in the past, the current time, and for as long as he could hold onto it in the future. Whether KyuHyun felt the same way didn't matter because he didn't need a label in order to care for someone; YeSung had taught him that.

Perhaps once during that party, SungMin snuck a glance over at the man that had begun to invade his dreams only until a week prior. Maybe one day, when SungMin felt safer and more secure, he would allow himself to open up to that friendship once more, because YeSung really was a nice friend, in the end.

But for now, ignoring YeSung's still desperate and confused gazes as well as the man next to him, SungMin heaved a sigh and turned toward KyuHyun.

"KyuHyun," SungMin said quietly, not really caring if the other man could hear him. "Saranghae."

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